recuperating-

2007-06-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

i didnt want him to see my blog.therefore it's only good i used back bitched-off.
i so wanna blog out my feelings but with out him seeing.
i so wanna cry.ok,i cried.
it's so unhealthy.but it's already been the 3rd time i cried without him knowing.
i finally realised my place in his heart.
i should have realised it earlier.
is it too late to let go.no it's not.
my position now is not allowed.i cant afford it anymore.

maybe all this while,i should believe wat vann says.
den i wouldnt have ended up like that.
maybe all this problems,i'm the only one making it big.maybe i'm tat unreasonable.
stubborn.
i tell myself now,i'm not falling anymore.

vann just called me,
feeling so much better now.
goin out now.
continue my post soon.

heartbroken.

2007-03-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

somehow i jux cant bear to let my blogger rot like tat.
i noe no one's gonna visit here anymore.
but jux feel like adding a post.

doing fine with xanga.but jux misses how blogger works.

i'm missing boon.he's gonna be back real soon.
but 10 days is like still kinda long.
seems like my bestie is enjoying her life.
happy clubbing for tonight.too bad i cant join.
but she'll be fine with jas n the rest.i noe she'll enjoy.

2007-03-04T20:58:00.000+08:00

2007-03-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

i'm moving.

fucking blogger is irritating me.

so pple,link me.and those using blogger,screw blogger man.
www.xanga.com/linnglove

2007-03-03T06:23:00.000+08:00

back frm chalet.yawnz...maahjong.won a lil.
love my big family.
bowling with vann n cuzziess...
idiotic guy came so late.actually thought can meet him in e afternoon b4 he fly at night.
but in e end only get to spent 3 hrs tog.
hmmm..well,he need to spent time with his family too yah.(:
it's only 3 weeks anyway.

comfy at e airport.met up with grace n the rest.
didnt get to send pam cos time is too tight.
i'm gonna miss tat sweet gal.poor zhi heng.

i can feel the interest for mahjong getting stronger.
omg.this is bad.

2007-03-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

ms lim shi yin's hens night @ mos.
awww..my sister is gettin married.
went down to zouk for awhile after tat.
poor boy is doin his guard duty.wahaha.

work was alright on thurs.
today's sis' rom.happy for her.
although i was a lil pissed with dad,as a result,i gave a lil attitude.

lil chloe is slpin on my bed right now.
love her loads.my sweet lil niece.
mr ng gonna fly for 3 weeks.hmmm..
whether i'm gonna miss him or not..well..
that's e question.

2007-02-28T03:47:00.001+08:00

oh yah,and i'm missing him.

2007-02-28T03:20:00.000+08:00

finally i attended class today.
i had to admit i love my lecturer.he's so much fun.

met up with darius and went up his hse.
alright,when the lin and fongs meet up.
they start to go crazy.
crazily camwhoring.

2007-02-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

argh..blogger is driving me mad.
all the post are not up.

alright,ivy asked me to start work only on the 1st.
becos of some changes in e credit card department.

need to burn midnight oil with yunlong later for my assignment.
argh..
saving up for something.damn,how bloody broke will i be when i buy it.
it's gonna cost me almost 3/4 of my pay.
but i jux dunno why i can make sacrifices.
anyway,hopefully i'm able to save successfully.

i wanna go on a holiday.
i wanna shop.
damn,i wan money.(:

2007-02-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

grace's chalet was cool.
idiotic prasad keep teasing.argh.haha.
all down to mos after tat.
rushed down to st james for vito's bdae after tat.

was planning to go down to e pet farm in e morning,
but the both of us jux didnt had enuff slp.
so we jux went down to get his stuff n went to meet mum.
we missed e fireworks.damn it.but it's ok.

argh...i forgot all about my assignment.
it's gonna due on tue.i'm dead for sure.
i need an angel.!!

2007-02-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

went down to town and meet cheryl.
bought freddy's present,and gracie's bdae cake.
i damn forgot there's chingay today.argh!!
met up with psd,edwin,zhiheng,vann n jon....
went to crystal jade.lots of stupid jokes.
well,psd really have a way to drag me down the club.
well,i shouldnt say drag,it's willingly.
but den i still went home early.

seriously,i'm getting fucking fat.
at the rate i'm eating,i'm gonna burst.
i might get too fat for him to want me.wahaha.

alright,it's gonna be a long saturday.
needa rest.
hopefully cheryl yeo wont be late tml.(:

2007-02-22T03:38:00.000+08:00

a wonderful night with dbs pple at kbox(cine).
oh and i didnt went to zouk.sorry pam.
ah yan watching the click.-.-

missing you.

2007-02-21T05:26:00.000+08:00

new yr was fine.

day 1:
to grandma's hse,followed by vann aunt's hse,lastly boon's hse.
s'pore is so small after all.everyone is linked.

day 2:
nv fail to go aunt's hse on e 2nd day of cny.
this is whr the red packets starts to roll.
met up with boon n gang to clinic,n vann plus alvin at gang.
alright,i wasnt in a gd mood tat night.but felt better after tat.

day 3:
whye ee's hse.down to vann's hse again.
i love the two retrievers yunlong brought.
but gora is more obedient.thk god.

i'm growing fatter n fatter n fatter.damn it.

2007-02-19T04:51:00.000+08:00

2007-02-19T04:39:00.000+08:00

2007-02-19T04:35:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel tat blogger is damn lag.
or is it my ibook?
watever it is.i'm damn irritated.

first day of cny was fine.
grandma hse in e afternoon.
joined vann at her aunt's hse.
went up to boon hse in e night.
i have to say s'pore is jux too small.

anyway,i'm feelin comfortable.
but i dunno wat's holding me.
i'm searching for a reason.

and this post was meant to be posted on fri:

company's dinner at johor on thurs.
mani pedi for 4 hrs.
fake tattos.

boss gave us half day ytd.
went home,had a nap.
watch protege.
haiz,louis koo....but he's overall still handsome alright.
supper at hk cafe.(:
went down zouk with kerson while boon sent vann home.
when two road idiots get tog,it's disaster!

phuture was super duper packed.which always irritates me ALOT.
i'm pondering over things which i could juz let go.
but my heart doesnt allow.

reunion dinner tonight.and den down to vann hse for another rd.
i want hongpaos!!!

2007-02-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all.
home after a short day.
went study with audrey.
after tat i went home to wait for one big shot whom only booked out at 6 plus.

well,basically we were stucked in e jam for like an hour.
no i should say jam half an hour,on e road another half an hour.
in e end,my directional sense led us to parkway parade.
seriously i'm in love with those puppies.
i want my dog.!
alright,had a fast dinner and some big shot has to rush back to camp.

and to tat big shot,the flowers arrived at my hse at 11.15pm.
anyway,much appreciated.

work tml.zzz.

2007-02-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

work was fine today.
i like my new colleague,stephanie.
coincidentally,she live tpy too.

tml is valentine's day.
no valentine so meetin audrey to study.
but after tat she has her prog in e evening.
as for me,home of cos.
i have a date with my tv.

it's been four days.
i'm not showing tat i miss him.cos i jux don wanna show.
but i miss bestie.

2007-02-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

wasted.could have slept longer.
blur me.forgetting work only starts tml.not TODAY.
thkx yun long for buying me breakfast.
took an afternoon nap.
met weiling aarong n eric in town.
argh..weiling n eric damn fucking sweet.JEALOUS!
haha.but i love both of dem.

met up with zewei also.chill.

alright.tml start work.argh..
i don have the mood to work.but i have to.

2007-02-11T17:27:00.000+08:00

i thought it would be a wonderful night ytd.
after watching 3on3,studying..chilling out with erich n gang.
problems arised.
it was considered one of the biggest quarrel ever since i moved in.
but my stubborness jux didnt give in.
thkx prasad for listening to my nags in e cab.
i know vann is always dere for me.
i love uncle chai too.
i know i made sis and dad angry.
i will change.be a gd gal.at least i'll try.

went back to mos.this time with sis.
alright,for the very first time in my life,i was almost drunk.
damn it.feeling sucks man.
i wanna quit drinking.(haha,rubbish)

it's been 2 days.damn,hangover~

2007-02-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

got e job.
although the pay isnt much satifaction,but i really cant be bothered.
jux too lazy to find for a job.so i had to accept.
met up with my north n south poles.
we always gt lots to gossip.no matter how long we didnt see each other,
the bond btw e four of us is always dere.loves.
i miss netball.seriously.

o level results are out.

i dunno about my feelings.
but i noe i'm missing him.
maybe it's a crush,maybe not.
watever it is,i still live in my own world.

studyin with bestie chai tml in town.
fucking slpy.off to slp.

2007-02-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

i'm fucking moody.

leave me alone~

2007-02-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

marketing managment.
damn,the assignment looks fucking tough.
i'll get some help.

it's a expensive gift.i'll return him something on his bdae.
i don like e feeling.
vann n kerson is right.
i feel so heavy now.physically and emotionally.
i wanna be alone.

my friends are enough.
vann is there for me.
so are the rest of my gals.
i don wanna fall for anyone.

unless u made me to.
but it's difficult.
everyone noes i'm hard to handle.
so leaving me alone would be the best.
i'm enjoying my lfe now.but i wanna make sure i have wat i want.

i live my life.

2007-02-05T15:11:00.000+08:00

it's been like goin 3 mths since the break up.
and i still wanna be alone.
my frens ard me is enough.i'm contented.

valentine's day?
it's just a normal day.
singles should stay home and watch tv like me!
i know i have many pple caring for me.
it's all appreciated.

i wanna partye~

2007-02-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

2007-02-04T03:46:00.000+08:00

let's not talk about exam.
jared's chalet was fun.playing cards n games,drinking.
had loads of fun.

went out with boon today.
met up with pamie n andre for a walk.
singapore recreational club for jag's bdae.
up to loof to chill.

i dunno wat i want.i'm so lost.

i wanna be alone.

n i miss ah yan.

2007-02-02T03:20:00.001+08:00

hk cafe,
sch,exam tips,presentation.
hk cafe,mos,home.

fries,laptop,sarsi,lecture notes,preperation for exam.
jared's chalet tml.exam on sat.damn.

2007-02-01T07:13:00.000+08:00

new cap.
phuture.
dance.
drink.
new frenx.
almost having fights.
home.

i'm staying single.to keep myself away frm trouble.
i'm happy this way,unless someone touches my heart.

i love all my lovely gals.they r everything.
exam's ard the corner.i'm dead.

2007-01-31T13:43:00.000+08:00

2007-01-31T13:26:00.000+08:00

2007-01-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

northzone ytd.miss ms ng,met mun ting.
town with vann,alvin and alan.
wenta clinic,chill..poyo n jasmin.
biked home.fucked.i'm an idiot.20km/hr
thkx alan.

went back to sgh for check up.
radiographer wants e navel piercing out,but i convinced dem.
doc wants me back in 12 weeks time.
i'll beg him to let me play.

lunch at swensens with aaron's team.
limin's last day.party world too.
haven yet had my presentation.
exam this sat.i'm in deep shit.

should i fall or should i not.

2007-01-29T05:23:00.000+08:00

2007-01-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

2007-01-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

I definitely enjoyed myself today.
Netball brings me joy,hopefully able to get back on court in april.
Loves gossiping with meisi and gals.
Loves Vincent loves seniors loves juniors.
It’s been long since the four of us sat down,eat n chat.
Although the four of us seldom get tog,but we jux have tat special bond.
The north n south poles.
Memories flash back during last 2 yrs sportskaki.
How our strength,determination,communication and teamwork kicked EXTREMES out of court.
The look on bob’s face really couldn’t maintain.the win brought the 4 of us even closer.
I’ll be back on court soon,I wanna gain back my elevation n everything to get ready for national league.

I’m still afraid,but I’m starting to fall.
I noe vann’s gonna be worried,but I noe wat I’m into.

I miss my bestie for dunno why.
And I’m sun burnt.

2007-01-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

home all day,slept all day.
kallang netball centre tml.
i miss netball.

2007-01-27T10:36:00.000+08:00

as expected,insomnia.
thumper - momo .

i'm afraid to fall.

2007-01-25T05:22:00.000+08:00

tutor lil yun yun.seriously her maths sucks like me.
went down to balacalva.
then down to mos.
it was christine's bdae.love hher so much.she missed partying for weeks man.
had loads fun when me and vann hopped down to zouk too.
music was great.pple was crazy.
after reaching home,silly YE wanted go for supper.
and so,i gained another kg.fuck!

no more skippin of lesson tml.gd gal.
i love my bestie.
*grace,u missed partying again.'

fotos to be upload once received.

2007-01-23T04:54:00.000+08:00

went down all the way to bugis to brush up on our project.
oh god,i saw a mickey mouse cap.damn nice.gonna get it later b4 sch.
met up with whye ee and we wenta find aaron at new asia bar.
it was geok leng's bdae.saw many of the ex,present dbs pple.i seriously miss dem so much.

loyang to pray and den down to hk cafe at siglap.
i always feel so comfy with whye ee and of cos aaron.
kinda emo when they talked bout him jux now.but i'm alright.

gotta go home straight after sch later.if not i'm afraid dad will complain tat i keep goin home 'early'.
den i might not be able to attend christine party at mos.
tat's be so bad.

oh yah,lychee martini at new asia seriously sucks.

2007-01-21T06:09:00.000+08:00

2007-01-21T05:59:00.000+08:00

it was a filling saturday.not at all wasted.
met up with ah yan and den gracie.starbucks and nydc.
i love gracie.no doubt loving ah yan too.
headed down to momo for alan's bdae.
and hopped to mos after tat.
poor ah yan lost her red.hope it'll be send back although e chance is like 1%.
*GRACE TNG!!YOU WENT BACK EARLY WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE!!ALRIGHT BUT I'LL STILL LOVE U.I WAN THE FOTOS!*

MOS was great.everyone was fun.ANN was a great company.
thkx AnN,u were one of those tat made me hyper the whole night at MOS.
haha.and playin with johnathan and cheryl was damn fucking fun.
alright,i'm a loser.
and yah,erich is rated 10.(hope he sees this,he'llbe fucking contented)
i feel some emo-ness in psd today,or am i sensative.?
anyway,mos was cool today,at least better than last week.(:

home at last with josh.PIG!
macD breakfast is fattening josh.it's time i control.wahaha.
loves.

funny thing bout me i realised recently,i feel happier with gals ard me than guys.
i was bored when vann went home.even grace wasnt ard,!!but thk god i feel warrmth with ann n cheryl.
but seriously,i noe i still like guys lah.
jux tat my gfs make me feel happier.
i'm sexist.kinda sexist.

2007-01-20T06:15:00.000+08:00

i'm home.went out to chill at este bar.
oh god,it's such a disastrous.i miss kelvin and his live band.they were so much better.
3 person finishing a bottle of martell.
mac breakfast.
i wanna go virgo and den redang.april,yeah!

mos tonight,meeting grace b4 tat.
we gonna party tonight!!

2007-01-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

josh complained tat i left out the guys.cos i'm sexist.haha.
alright i'm loving erich loving josh loving edwin n prasad.loving jared n cw.
seriously it's frm e bottom of my heart.not jux becos i received josh's complaint.
but i'm jux a little sexist.tat's all.but i still love the guys.

2007-01-19T17:20:00.000+08:00

i'm tempted to swim.but laziness stopped me.
didnt go mos ytd,jux didnt wanna even club on weekdays.really need to rest my spine.
i can feel that my next appointment at sgh,doctor gonna tell me it's curving back.i don want!

clubbing seems to be kinda HOT nowadays.
and for pple who dont club,partying seems to be like a sin.
to dem,guys tat go clubbing jux wanna flirt with gals.and gals tat go club are juz bitches.

alright.i started to club at e age of 19.kinda late i guess?
but after the first time,i realised it's part of our teenage yrs.
and partying with the right group of frenx really matters alot.
and i enjoy the company of my party frenx.wonderful pple.
but seriously,i cant stand those underage parties at DXO.it really kinda pissed me off seeing those young underage kids clubbing.they defeat the purpose of partying.seeing young gals gettin drunk is so ridiculous.so unglam.
but i guess to dem,getting drunk is way damn cool.but only will they start to realise it's so disgraceful when they grow older.

gals tat are attached who clubs obviously invites more gossip den gals tat are single who clubs.
great thing i'm single.but the prob is,i don understand why.
ever since zack and me broke off,i started to party like no one's business.and i always receive msges n testimonials like-
'wow,seems like someone's been clubbin alot lately'
'wah,someone chiongster already'
'today nv go mos or zouk?'
'ytd go clubbing again right'

seriously,i find partying a healthy part of life.and of cos with the fun and right pple.
jux tat i might die kinda early with those 2nd hand smoke.

enough of clubs.mos tml.wahaha.
as for today,i might jux stay at home.cos i wanna stick to my tv.
but who noes i might drop by zouk tonight.
needa rush my project.it's gonna due on e 23rd.damn.
i'm seriously broke.hope the sky starts raining money one day.
but it shall only rain under tpy blk 148.wahaha.rubbish.

i'm loving my life,loving vann,loving gracie,loving cheryl,loving pam n dianna.
life is so lovely with my gfs.partyin is always fun with dem.
they fill the emptiness in my heart.

2007-01-17T03:24:00.000+08:00

i wish my heart could love someone.
but it's numb.

2007-01-16T02:17:00.000+08:00

back frm suppie with josh.
i'm gonna get fat.i swear.
but i'm loving it.

bestie is back.yea!
meetin up tml b4 class.
hopefully lah.i'll call her at 4 plus and i bet she'll still be aslp.
damn,not done wit my research.aargh.!!

best cuzzin and best niece

supper with josh

2007-01-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

back frm cuzzie hui xian's wedding dinner.
four season hotel.
love family gatherings.
love all my cousins.

supper maybe.
but i'm getting fat.

2007-01-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

slept for like less than 3 hrs,meet up e pple for project.
damn slpy.
meet up josh n cherrie in town.
slack here and dere.thinking of wat to buy for lin ge bdae.
zewei came and we keep talking bout sch days.
suddenly i jux miss it.

firmly stayin home tonight.
not only am i tired.
but my spine is fucked pain.
i'm afraid,very afraid it's gonna curved back.
so i wanna rest tonight.

something caught my eye.
$360.damn!!!forget it.but it's damn beautiful.

i miss my bestie.hope she doesnt catch a cold at genting.

to josh fong:i love macD breakfast.and stop being a PIG!

2007-01-13T06:36:00.000+08:00

2007-01-13T06:10:00.000+08:00

2007-01-13T05:54:00.000+08:00

was kinda moody today for dunno wat reason.
which makes partying a lil boring today.
hk cafe with pam n vann and we made our way down to zouk.
well,many known pple dere.jeff tat bunch,zewei tat bunch,jin yong tat bunch.
i was kinda pissed off with the pushy crowd wich was always e case.
prasad n erich went down zouk for a while n i went back to mos with dem.
went up to pure to find the dbs bunch,
miss mr chan so much.and edmund seems a little gone.
and he told me he's back to single.haha.wtf.
i always enjoy their company.with yen,ryan,janice,grace and all.

maybe my moodyness kinda spoil todays' partying.
i jux got no mood.no reasons,jux moody.
gals don need reasons to get moody yah.

macD breakfast with josh.
kinda cheered me up.
alright,macD breakfast always cheers me.
gotta wake up for project later.
dinner with zewei,and maybe acc mr chan.
he seems disturbed lately.

i shall have a healthy saturday,
well,partyin is healthy yah,but not this sat.
i wanna rest,AND CUT DOWN ON CLUBBING.
wahaha.hopefully gracie gonna join us for party next week.

to vann chai:i'm gonna miss you gal.win more money k.den it's gonna be ur treat.loves.

to grace trisha:we gonna party next week yah,i'll stick to you.no emoness.meet up for study on weekday k.i miss you lah!!

to dianna tai:upload e fotos!!ok,i'll vote u and hopefully u get a trip to bali.or maybe win A CAR!!!

to pam kay:stop walking ard with tat FHM booklet.i'll vote u too alright.

to cherylyeo:stop losing to jared.continue making erich drink!!

i love all my gals.

2007-01-11T04:47:00.000+08:00

it's a comfortable night.the music plays in my head.memories jux flashed back.the days we do almost everything together.they are now all memories.i'm taught not to trust a person so easily.till now,i'm still hanging on my dignity and pride.i'm accepting the fact that i got betrayed.even after the break off,i continued my silliness.but i was brought back to senses after my operation.maybe the pain wake me up.i rmb the msg during my hospital days.''i still treat u as a gd fren''.so much for ''GD FREN'' not tat i look forward to him treatin me as a gd fren.seriously i jux wish he fuck off.but i cant stand hypocrites.how fake can he be?i've got so much regrets after coming back to reality.i realised i'm too stubborn to listen to advices.i gave too my trust in him n myself.i almost lost my best fren.i gave all my time to him.i admit i have my faults.but i cant tolerate him for loving another gal within 1 week.maybe even less than that,who noes.''why would i need to spent money n mths to play you,why cant i jux use a few weks?'' 'cos a few weeks is not enuff to play me''.

i dunno why i'm blogging all these.i'm jux feelin fucked up out of sudden.i noe he wont get to see this blog.but watever it is.it's over.it's been long since it's over.i'm starting anew.

karma.retribution.
i'm awaiting.
i cant forgive,neither could i forget.
i wanna see you fall.

and i really mean FALL.

2007-01-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

hk cafe with vann after class.
town with grace today,and balacalva after tat with danny.
2 shots of mccormick.damn it.
ok,at least i'm still sober.tat's funny.
class tml.argh.

2007-01-09T04:40:00.000+08:00

town with danny,
bugis with grace.
watched blood diamond,had swensens,
with erich edwin josh prasad cheryl.

HAPPY BDAE EDWIN!

class tml.
hopefully be able to meet pig chai in town first.

2007-01-08T05:18:00.000+08:00

juz woke up.
damn it.
i wan more sleep!

2007-01-07T10:15:00.000+08:00

2007-01-07T10:12:00.000+08:00

i seriously dunno if it's consider suffering frm insomnia again.
slept for like 3 hrs?
munching my mac breakfast now.
it's always a heaven to eat macD breakfast on a sunday morning.

pam's bdae was a bash.
and yah,mos after tat.
too bad pamela kay cant join.
hope she's alright.

studying later i guess.
hopefully i get enuff slp.
zzz.
hashbrowns tasting gd.

2007-01-06T05:10:00.000+08:00

2007-01-06T05:07:00.000+08:00

he wanted to meet up vann to pass her my things.
but i called him and asked him to throw away.
i jux cant stand hypocrites.

slackin in town.
pool n photohunt.
round 79.we'll hit 100 next time grace!!

phuture was packed.but i had fun.
another long day tml.hope dad dont mind.(:

2007-01-05T03:34:00.000+08:00

2007-01-05T02:31:00.000+08:00

once again i had supper.and becos of grace tng,i'll change my style of posting.i feel tat she can help me to blog lah.

met danny to shenton way and met up with his friend for some tailor made stuffs.seriously,centrepoint is so damn boring.too bad it was raining in town.if not i could have gt something for myself.went up to class after paying my fees.class was not tat big.and classmates were,i dunno how to describe.i keep wanting to fall aslp although the lecturer was gd.assignments were given and to be submitted on 23rd jan.argh!!so fast lah.

met up with gracie,vann,cheryl and edwin to can cafe.and josh too.slacking dere,taking stupid pictures and planning for tml,i mean later evening.i wanna get the dress at far east.but i'm seriously broke.

after sending vann hope,we went for supper again lah.i REALLY REALLY REALLY need to stop this bad habit.if not i'll need to face the consequences.

life without him seems real fun.i'm really happy to have my friends with me.and i'm glad i noe gracie and cheryl.they are so nice.(grace n cheryl,don be proud when u see this alright)
and of cos i love my gal.hopefully dad allows me to genting.if not,we'll have a steamboat party at vann's hse tog.(: sounds yummy!!

the night is still young`

2007-01-04T01:18:00.000+08:00

damn.
i cant stop eating.
but i really needa CONTROL!
went supper with aaron n peeps.
tat's SOOO controlled lah.

catch up with each other.
i realised it's still bothering me.
i'm so pissed.
i cant wait to see e day he falls.
i noe i'm evil.
but i really cant forgive,
neither could i forget.

let me get on with life.
i noe i'm happier this way.
i'm healing.it just takes time.

2007-01-03T04:04:00.000+08:00

vann's sick.
poor girl.
went up to her hse with josh.

my weight now:48.5kg
1.5kg to go.and no more.

my bad habit of eating in e middle of the night has to go.

2007-01-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

didnt went for class.
was too tired.
thurs den.

i was thinking these days.
whether i'm over it.
i couldnt ans.
i wonder if i could still swollow it down.
but seriously,i've been enjoying myself ever since it ended.
it's painful though.
but i noe i'm not the one tat deserve to be in misery.

i lost all my trust and confidence in love.
when can i gain it back?
i really dont know.

i feel comfortable with YOU.

2007-01-02T02:33:00.000+08:00

watched death note with josh.
supper at geylang after tat.

i wanna take things slowly.

sch tml.in e morning.
argh..

2007-01-01T17:02:00.000+08:00

mos was great!
i love my bestie.
i love everyone.

HAPPY NEW YR!!

it's 2007.
my new yr resolutions.

health:speedy recovery of cos.
physically:stay cheerful and be prettier.(hopefully i don gain so much)
studies:complete my diploma by oct 07.
work:i wanna earn loads man.
friendship:i'm gonna love my frenx.
family:loving my family always.
love:i cant be bothered seriously.

i love partying`

2006-12-31T15:55:00.001+08:00

it was a bad dream followed by a sweet one.

2006-12-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

met up with josh to town.
new york cheesecake was nice.
damn,i'll gain back my weight at anytime.
didnt get to catch deathnote.lousy seats.

cw n cheryl came.
den coincidently,prasad and pple came.
so proud of myself.i didnt went down to mos.
all of them looked so shag n they're still clubbing .

tml gonna party!
but b4 tat,
a night at the museum.

2006-12-30T11:13:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel tat ibook sucks lah.
i wanna use microsof.
i wanna download picasa.
i wanna download hello.
den will uploading the pics be easier AND FASTER!

jux had my breakfast.
macD breakfast always make me smile.
i love big breakfast,AND HASHBROWN!.

and now i really need to slp.
freaking tired.
-yawns-

2006-12-30T08:44:00.000+08:00

2006-12-30T08:07:00.000+08:00

2006-12-30T07:32:00.000+08:00

yes.insomnia once again.
damn.it's 7.30 lah!
yes.A.M!

went town with grace.
camwhoring the whole day.
cheryl came later.
yes.i had my brownie.
alright,i'll post the fotos soon.

mos after sakae sushi.
i hate waiting.
but it's alright with company.
had fun.

i wanna make zhi heng drunk!
waiting for NYE.

i'm loving you gal,
u're forever my gal i promised.
our friendship goes on.

damn,i'm tired but i cant get to slp.
god,help me!

2006-12-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

2006-12-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

went back office and had lunch.
rain rain rain.
boring.

lin ge acc me to pay my fees.
the sch campus seems comfy.
gonna start class on tue.damn.

met up pam.had dinner.
vann was late.pig!
and tai pig pig didnt come.
cos she's another pig.(yes dianna tai,talking bout u)

i'm tired.
and i didnt get to eat my brownie.
i wan brownies!!

and everyone says me and van are sisters.
damn.
haha.nah.i love her.

2006-12-27T02:58:00.000+08:00

i thought i could slp thruout the night.
the weather's gd.
but ya,i'm up again.

vann came up my hse.
couldnt go town with her cos of e rain.
was online the whole day.
chatting with my new found pig fren.
and i guess i really meant pig.
haha.but i noe i'm pigger.

it's bleeding.damn,i'm worried.
i'm excited to start class.
and yah,sort of lazy too.

new yr eve gonna be great.
we'll party``
i wanna chill too.
my back needs rest.

i love my family and friends.
most importantly,
i'm loving ME.

2006-12-25T17:04:00.001+08:00

i'm thinking of movie.
but i'm lazy.

i miss netball.
i miss sports.

2006-12-25T16:17:00.000+08:00

2006-12-25T09:32:00.000+08:00

Insomnia.

peer pressure.
but MOS was great.
the crowd was a little unexpected.

Great night,Great people.
love my x'mas gift frm chrissie.

i love my gal.
MERRY X'MAS!
post the photos soon.

loves (:

2006-12-24T16:04:00.000+08:00

it's xmas eve.
and i hate the x'mas crowd.

i'll be fine at home(:
NO MINISTRY OF SOUND TODAY!

i'm beginning to love my life.
like wat erich says"GET OVER IT LAH"

2006-12-24T03:15:00.000+08:00

down to town.
chat ard with joe shaun n brandon.
miss their nonsense.
hitched a ride frm shaun to mos.

chill a while at tcc.
our usual hangout.

mos after tat.
vann went home early.
party with prasad n gang.
too bad christine couldnt make it down.
i missed her.

surprisingly,i lasted for 7 hrs today.
the power of partying.
like wat psd always say,
mos is a hospital.
right,n he's e doctor.

yah,i need to rest my back now.

2006-12-23T16:09:00.001+08:00

he's fucking heartless.

2006-12-23T08:55:00.000+08:00

i went thru some entries.
i seriously deserve so much better.

karma``we shall await.

2006-12-23T08:32:00.000+08:00

i'm awake by the pain,
cant get back to slp.
damn it.

goin down to polyclinic to change my dressing.
but i'm seriously lazy .
and i really mean SERIOUSLY.
no choice.

my appetite is coming back.
but i don wanna grow fat.

meetin vann in town for dinner.
i wanna last longer outside.
argh!!!``

2006-12-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

went town to meet tai n her fren nicole.
did something stupid,out of impulsiveness.

I PIERCED MY NAVEL!

alright,i shant say it's out of impulsive.
cos i keep naggin at dianna n nicole whether i should get it done or not.
and of cos they say go ahead.
dianna has one.n she say it's painless.
god,i really have to admit tat my pain tolerence is damn bad.
i wanted to scream when e needle went in.
damn.thk god i'm safe n sound.
haha.nonsense.

had a chat with vito.
vito:can have sex or not?
wenn:huh?
vito:i'm asking u can have sex or not u..haha..meaning have u recovered frm ur op!

god..this silly guy..stupid way to phrase himself.

alright.i wanna party soon.

i love my frenx.
i love my bestie.

2006-12-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

went dinner at furama with the dbs pple.
many say i lost weight n grew taller.
haha.of cos.6kg lost!! i cant even fit into my jeans now.
i guess i'm ard 167 cm??
didnt really measure.

went to dragonfly after tat.
had e gift exchange thingy.
everyone was so high.
went home at 11pm.
i guess my spine is still very weak.

i really need to complain.
singapore had hell lots of taxis.
but whr the hell did they go ytd night.
blardy hell..!!!
cant even get to on call one.damn it.

went to apply for my private dip jux now.
but still considering actually.
seriously,i'm like paying more to skip advance dip.
but it's alright.
the course interest me.

i'm starting to look down on him.
and i'm waiting.waiting for e day he falls.
i had to admit,i'm not a nice gal.
i cant forgive,nor could i forget.
karma.i believe in karma.
his retribution will be awaiting.

2006-12-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

it's been raining.................

another reason to make me stay home.
memories keep flashing back.
but i have to stay strong.
i've gt more to do.

alright.
settled my studies.
settled my job.
jux hope tat life will be better.

realised i've been a very selfish gal all along.
it's time i spare thoughts.

thkx bestie for being there for me always.
i love ya gal.
huuggs..

2006-12-18T21:32:00.000+08:00

it's a boring bdae.
glenna n vann playin uno now.
i won since jux now.waiting for dem to end e game.

mervyn called me.
wishes.
he told me something else.
haha.which made me feel tat really,hypocrites.
he went drinking with him n others ytd.
n he told me about one of e conversation.
biaatch....
but watever,fuck care.

the two sillies still not ending e game.
green plus 2 wat colour??
nonsense..

2006-12-18T14:25:00.000+08:00

a week of torture is gone.
but e pain remians.
hope it'll go soon.

first thing i came out from e OT.
i felt for my legs.to make sure e op is a successful one.
i don wanna erich or jared to wheelchair me into mos.
haha.

the food jux sucks.
i love aunt's cooking.

many came to visit.
if i list the names.i seriously don have e patience.keke
many blessings.
i'm loved (:

thkx gal for being with me for e whole journey.
loves(:

i didnt care.
i even lied i didnt like his chocs.
but i jux cant feel any sincerity frm him.
i nv will be cheated again.

erich was sweet.
thkx idiot.
u cheered me up.
i'll look after ur ipody.

nono n cassie celebrated my bdae.
(:
presents!!!
love everyone.

nurses r nice n sweet.

it's my bdae.
and i'm glad it's at home.
(:

2006-12-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

bye bye to my brace after tonight!!!

2006-12-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

great,one call woke him up.
thank god.
vivo city was boring.
but since erich is goin there for e first time,
i let him experience e place.
saw brandon n guys.

shopping ard.....
went to town.
tat silly guy bought things for himself
when he should be buying presents for others.
met up with edwin n had dinner at sun with moon.
this two guys are crazy on wasabi man.

it was a great day with erich.
he made me feel comfortable.
he was a nice bud,nice fren.

tml is e day of my surgery.
i really hope things go my way.
may god bless me-

2006-12-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

back frm chilling.
went into mos for a short while.
the pple are like........
is mos giving away money..
anyway,crowd always pissed me off.

dad was surprised i'm home early.
well i said i want a peaceful weekend.

erich better get his ass off his bed when i call him tml.
i wanna get my shoppin done.
i don wan another aeroplane.

-smilex-

2006-12-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

it was the best night of the week.

chill out with dianna n pam at zouk.
well we keep talking about pri sch days.
haha.alright.we didnt really change.

went to meet aaron n pple at dragonfly.
we got a room upstairs n all of us were singing like crazy.
the guys jux form a new band...CRYSTAL BAND!!
haha.alright.it was fun.
the room was nice.
took damn loads of fotos man.

met up jared n pple for supper.
home at 7 A.M!!
anyway.it's my last day to enjoy.
it's gonna be a peaceful weekend till my op.

2006-12-08T03:52:00.000+08:00

singapore won scotland.
it was a nice game. (:

wenta watched dejavu.
with prasad n gang.
thank god i didnt say pls to erich.
cos he came in e end.
it was a great show anyway.

was kidnapped down to mos.
haha.buti went off early.

alright i have to say i find erich cute.
but he's definately not my type.
and i'm sure i'm not his too.
keep bickering with prasad.
haha.god,he's gonna find me annoying.

i'm not taking interest in any guys.
and i know myself why.
:)

soon,i'll be lying on e wardbed.
and hopefully i'll recover soon..

may god bless me-

2006-12-07T03:52:00.000+08:00

zouk was tooooooooo packed.
saw whyee n yen..den nono...
i guess zouk was packed for dem too.
tat's why they went momo.

mos was fun.
music was to my liking.
prasad n pple was cool.
edwin sent me home.

my stupid bestie...
wonder wat's wrong with her silly n73.
hope exams' fine for her.

singapore won canada.
i miss netball.

dinner with aunt tml.or i mean later in e evening.
i wonder wat's wrong.
maybe movie??
but i wanna watch 4 nations at tpy sports hall.
hopefully singapore will be in 1st and 2nd. (:

2006-12-06T16:14:00.000+08:00

4 nations today.
great,netball!!!
i miss llabten pple.
time to catch up.

i realised i've been like so old.
when i'm only 19!!
alright,at least some say i look like my age.
but some,go to hell!i looked like 23???!!!
wth.
haha.

helping uncle seah with his project.
well,at least i'm free.
(:

mos later,??guess i might be tired..
we'll see.

-i'm gonna make life great for me-

2006-12-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

went for blood test.
but too bad.i'm sick.
so it's someone elses blood.

went walking ard marina sq with darren.
chit chat tick tock.
went back office den off we go for dinner.

everywhere i go,memories flashed back.
but god,after today,i've heard so much.
and i got my conclusion.

moody as usual.
went supper with eric weiling n edmund.and their fren.
had fun.had drinks.played games.
weiling tat silly gal.cant stand her.

i guess this is the real him.
and i'm disappointed.

2006-12-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

after being home all day,
went for breakfast-lunch-dinner cum supper with eric n wei ling.
called laura down too.
seems like everyone is sick.

meet up with edwin.
he ate e same thing.
haha.walked all e way frm balestier to toa payoh.
haha.nice work out.

blood test tml.
after tat goin dinner n ktv with limin n pple.
-smilex-

2006-12-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

i missed him.
but i noe he's not worth for me to even bother.
he's happy enjoying himself with another gal.
why do i have to make myself miserable.
all along it's a mistake.
i fell for e wrong person.
it's a lesson learnt.
the pain is terrible.

home all day today.
didnt go for blood test.
still sick.
there's so many things for me to do.
but i jux don feel like doing.
i got so many frenx.
but i jux dunno who to hang out with.
i'm so down.
but yet he's so up.
why am i still making myself so miserable becos of him.

memories.juz take it as memories.
i wanna be heartless.
i don wanna be e one,hurt.

heartbroken-

2006-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

i'm home all day.
chattin with erich on msn.
alright,conclusion.
he's a cute guy.
nice fren.

i'm stucked to my laptop for e whole day.
went dinner with denise.
borrowed bring it on back.
it was nice.well.quite nice.

blood test tml AGAIN.
god,why am i goin thru all these.
but watever it is,it's for e better.

i'm really looking forward to recovery.
it's my last week to enjoy b4 surgery.
and may god bless me. (:
i will be a very gd gal.

alright,i have to admit tat i keep thinking about him.
but i'm so glad it's over.
like wat many say,
i deserve so much better.
so i guess,it's a blessing in disguise.

blessed-

2006-12-03T03:45:00.000+08:00

i told him of wat i heard frm others.
but i noe he don believe n doesnt care.
he even had the gal to come msg me.
but i don give a damn.
i'm so much happier now.
at least i noe wat i want.
and who he is.
i'm nice to bless dem.
it's no longer an issue to me.

zouk was alright with vito n alex.
and of cos great to have my bestie down.
i missed her.
i'm sick n still force to drink.
which makes me high in jux a few sips.
but i'm alright.

down to mos,with christine.
lawrence's bdae.
i got my self a new bf.
i love u gal.haha.
erich was cute.with his cadbury.
edwin was influencing me with his cantonese.
jared was nice.
prasad was so gentlemen to acc me to e cab.
great night.
at least not e part whr e gal smsed me.
but at least i'.m not bothered.
i'm blessed.blessed to be loved.
loved by so many.
i should be happy.
cheers-

thks aaron for being there to listen everytime.
joe n pple was great too.
alright.so is mr au.
although u tortured my eeyore.
loves -

2006-12-02T03:53:00.000+08:00

i realised i've been blogging my troubles more than talking it out.
well this habit has to go.